this might be a short one
I have reached one of those lows again
one of those lows where I don't know what to do
where I don't know what I'm doing
where I don't know what the meaning of anything is
where I don't know what to do with myself
one of those lows where I am only able to sit around in a spot and do genuinely nothing for hours on end
like I try to, I literally put myself in front of all the assignments I must turn in
I look at them in my screen. what the professors want, the instructions I must follow, the deadline I must turn it in before
but I just can't bring myself to work on any of that
where I constantly drown out any attempt at a thought with a screen
where even if I sit in front of said screen I don't know what to do, so I just go scrolling on insta or youtube
or hell I've even started talking to bots again
character ai coming in clutch
one of those lows where I would love to stop everything, take a good look at where i'm going, go back and change that path
unfrotunately though this train only moves forward and the detours it picks aree unexpected and unpredictable
so the only thing you can really do is ride along, and pretend that everything is fine and going the way you meant it to be
you're sure that once upon a time you were certain that you wanted the train to go down this route
you just don't see it anymore
