THEY LOVED ME LIKE I WAS A BROTHER
(GAZING OVER THE MARKER SEA)
okay so I'm writing this after blog 38, but it's related to 37 so I'm gonna write it inside 37
the name is a lyric from the song (Nice Dream) by Radiohead
what would be of me right now if I hadn't discovered that band?
I think I'd still listen to mostly just Talking Heads, but maybe I would listen to other stuff more oftenly, unlike I do now
but yeah. for the last week, I've been listening to that song a lot, and I've been daydreaming about how an animation with that song and this oc would look like
as much as I hate remembering that character, it was still a good thing for me to rely on
and the friend group that he was linked to was amazing, too. before it broke up and started to disband
the animation I was imagining followed this. in the first verse, it was all nice, how the other characters welcomed CD, showed him his place in the realm, and he settled down, having fun with his new friends
the second verse is where we would really see the scene drawn here. the Nightmare Hunting season had begun. the sky turned red. CD was abandoned to deal with it by himself
then it'd be calm images for the second chorus. overlooking the dead, ruined island, all of its ruined structures
and as the song says "if you think you belong enough", some monsters would come into view
after this, when the guitar gets very aggresive, it'd be CD fighting these monsters, his own nightmares
he'd fight a very intense battle, and eventually, after the song reaches the end of its bridge ("now come home"), he would lay down on a bed
right as he lays down, the entire scene, him included, would change. it would no longer be CD. it'd be Daniel Jacón. let me see if I can find a photo of that drawing
it's not in the blog, since it was in the early days. lemme upload it then
this drawing is called "REALITY CHECK". it's a work in progress, but I never got around to finish it, nor do I really care enough to finish it now
in fact, I used this drawing for a banner before I even technically finished it. call back to blog 35
this is unrelated to the drawing or anything in specific, but I'm still gonna write it here because I don't feel like writing an all new entry for a single new thought
I'm glad I started this blog. I'm glad I gave myself this outlet
there's not really any person in real life who I trust enough to tell all the things I write here
being able to write them and let go of them in a way but not entirely, feels very comforting
and I find some amusement in seeing people interested in reading them, heheh
also, entries 22b and 23? yeahhhh they're gone for good, but for good good
as in, gone because I formatted my computer and I didn't save those entries in my hard drives
even if I brought them back, I've had enough time to really think over what I was saying in those entries
and I do not resonate with it anymore, so I do not find it appropiate to rewrite them
I guess those thoughts, I really did let go of
