personas are meant to represent oneself
and so, as with epople, they chagne and evolve over time
they adopt different aspects of the world around them
and they undergo self-reflection
they forget some tihngs while othres remai nentangled as memories
some would rather have them entangled, for the process of untangling tehm can be countreproductive
cd was alive during the most creative era of myself
energetic and outgoing, or at least trying to
attemptng to show confidence even in the direst situataions to not let down their friends
someone who'se ideas flourished almost overnight like worms rising to the surface in the rain
more than anything they wanted some friends to have one hell of a time
cd gre wup to become crescent
they matured into someone with a mind set more straight, ideas clear of what they wanted
ready to chase those ideas
they still hanged out with some of their old friends, but things were not by far what they used to
thta creativity was still inside them, but some of it had faded away with th eyears
and when they looked back, they couldn't help but long for those days now past
it got too much
crescent died. and in an interstellar burst. daniel came back
daniel cannot help but look back as well
and what might be worse, he'sn ot creative at all
how could he be creative. first he needs to find a place in the world
it flet so good to fantasoize being someone who he wa snot, and for three or four years it worked
yet he couldn't help but realize that he couldn't move on from those days
that he still longed f or them
that he still wanted to go bck
that's how crescent died
and yet. they are still with us. the same yolk in a different shell
although the yolk has spoiled
daniel is on the brink of depresion
he's already lived through two lifes and he dooesn't want to live through a third one
he can't find a purpose for continuing his own existence
and maybe
just maybe
one of these nights
the spectacle
might come
to an end
i hope you enjoyed this prose, laced with dry tears and quiet sobs