my eyes have felt pretty tired these last few days
it might be because I'm on my laptop every single day, at any time that I can
I don't even do anything on my laptop anymore
I just use it purposelessly, watching videos or chatting
avoiding my homework and other responsabilities of mine
does that make it a scapegoat?
maybe my problem is that I don't know what to create anymore
sure, roads and signs are cool
but my entire creativity and life revolves around roads and signs at this point
and I should be doing my homework instead
not writing this
the more I write here the worse I feel
maybe if I come back later
or tomorrow
I'll feel better about this
C said that I'm a decent person
that felt nice, honestly
will she read this?
most likely not. she can't be bothered